Not my story but maybe my future...
I've been trying to write down my story because I thought it would be freeing but I've been having a lot of resistance to it. It's stopped me from writing all together. And I'm not really sure why. I feel like it's not finished. I feel like it's not good enough. It doesn't have a point. It isn't ever going to be finished. I haven't organized it enough. It doesn't make sense. I'm leaving to much out. It doesn't explain who I am. It doesn't have a point. What's my point? It doesn't have a focus because I don't have a focus.
Maybe I can't finish it because I don't feel finished. I don't feel like I know what my point is. What comes up for me is helping kids and mothers be less stressed. Being a mother is most def my calling and I'm working on that but I want to help other mother's be more peaceful. I want kids to have someone to talk to who doesn't check their phone the whole time. I want kids to play. I want my kids to be freer than me. For my future kid, I want to show her how to really in her heart how to not give a shit about what the world thinks of her. I want her to believe in her own innate wisdom and power that she will have received just for being born. I want her to be free to do literally anything that she wants to do in this life. I want her to be free of judgement from me or her father or the world. I want to be a strong role model for her on how to do all these things.
I want her inner voice to be more positive than mine has been in the past. I want her to play and use her imagination and not apologize for being her true self. I want her to be 100% herself 100% of the time. When I have kids, I want to do something at home to make a living. I don't know how I could ever be apart from her. Anyone I took care of, I would want the same things for them that I would want for my kids.
Every time I sit down to write this idea comes up. Working from home that is. As I become more aware of myself the idea grows more in alignment with myself as well.