I have been feeling overwhelmed...
Unpacking
I've just moved into a new apartment and are in the middle of unpacking everything. We are down to the boxes of sentimental stuff that I need to go through and get rid of a bunch of stuff. I mean I have 6 big totes of sentimental crap that I have no idea what to do with. I can’t seem to throw away anything that my mom wrote and I have a hard time throwing out my old school projects because what was it all for if it just gets thrown away now. But on the other hand what the fuck am I supposed to do with all this crap?! I have an 850 square foot apartment. I can’t just put my dead mother’s journals on the bookshelf… or can I? I have no freaking idea! Please tell me what you have done with all the sentimental stuff in your house! Please help me!
Fertility Stuff
My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for over a year and a half. He just had surgery to try and correct the varicose veins in his balls and now we are in the middle of our 3 month wait to see if that worked. Let me tell you ladies - the 3 month wait is way fucking harder than the 2 week wait - Trust me.
Work Stuff
I have two part time day jobs as does my husband that combined are barely paying the bills. And one of my employers is communicating to the wider world that they are running out of money and they may need to start making staff cuts. AKA Amy the a/v person who’s job is hard to explain and understand is about to get fired. So that’s a little rough on the nerves and honestly the self confidence even though I know that it has nothing to do with me.
Everyday I’m Hustlin’
I'm also hustling my ass off all over the internet trying to make ends meet. I have a to do list about a mile long for all my online business ventures. And on top of that Jose found us a freelance video job for over the weekend which will be a nice chunk of extra cash ($500) but it will also be taking up my whole weekend so I only have one day off of work in the next 8 days. No Bueno.
When I’m Overwhelmed…
I tend to focus on one specific project that doesn’t even have any productive value which is super frustrating to me. And I know I’m doing it and sometimes I still do it anyway. HOWEVER recently I have been channeling the overwhelmed laser focus on unpacking the house so at least in the past few weeks I’ve gotten a TON done around the house. Lots of boxes have been unpacked and the stuff inside has been put where it belongs. I just need to continue to focus that energy on the emotionally draining sentimental boxes.
When I really need to get out of my own head I try to remember this:
“You are doing amazing. There is a lot going on in your world right now. A. LOT. It would be a lot for anyone and you are handling it the best way you know how. And that is all that anyone can ask of you.
There is nothing more that you can do in this moment. So take a breath. Yes! Right Now. Stop what you are doing and take a deep fucking breath. That is all you need to do in this moment. Now take another deep breath. And another.
Now, on the next breath ask yourself, "What is the most important thing I need to do right now?" And really listen to your inner voice's answer. Not your crazy mind's answer but that soul answer that comes from deep within you. What does your soul think is important for you to do right now?”
Today when I asked myself that question, I heard the inner voice say "Connect." So I'm headed home to connect with my husband irl. But I wanted to connect with you here too.
How do you react when you are overwhelmed? What do you do to get out of that feeling?
Respond in the comments or hit me up - amy@amyfarfan.com .
I’d love to connect with you!