Hello to the void.  

I have not been writing.  I think I'm trying to avoid something.  I'm trying to do the deep work, working out what my purpose is, finding my light that I'm supposed to share with the world.  But I just don't know.  

I feel like my light will come after I have kids...

I feel like that is my purpose - having kids - but already it has been a struggle.  I feel unworthy of taking care of other people's kids because I don't have any of my own to prove that I can do it successfully - even though I've been taking care of other people's kids my whole life.